I think part of the reason so many of us are stressed out is because we think we always have to know exactly what we are doing. We get caught up in our plans and our processes and formulas, so consumed by making sure everything works the way we want it to and when we want it to. And yet, in my eyes, true freedom and true perspective comes from where we are satisfied and joyful even when we HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WE ARE DOING.
I guess the long story short is that you are not alone in this, we all get nervous. I have to believe even some of the most profound professional public speakers still get nervous. I happen to believe that if you don’t get nervous, you don’t actually care. But instead of asking yourself WHY AM I SO NERVOUS in those moments? Try asking WHY AM I SO EXCITED?
I mean think about it, life would be a whole lot easier if we knew how everything was going to happen. Life might seem a whole lot better if we knew how and what to do at all times. But I might suggest, a life of certainty may be easier, but it is certainly a lot less fun.
And before we know it, we start acting in ways that are unnatural in order to impress people. We start wearing clothes we hate to fit in. We start carrying ourselves in ways that are aimed at impressing others instead of loving others. We become a show, rather than a positive influence. And I can’t help but think that sometimes, like a lot of people out there, my life becomes a show. A constant race to have people care about me and I end up forgetting to actually care about people. So what do we do? How do we become happy with who we are even with no one watching?
This naturally forces us to buy into what is “good” and then create art and creative pieces that simply reflect what society thinks is “good.” Soon enough we find ourselves trapped in an echo chamber where art looks the same, music sounds the same and creativity is a principle, not an expression. So how do we fight against this? I think we need to find ways to FORCE OUR CREATIVE HAND.